Tuesday, March 6, 2012

One and the other eleven


Bare foot round the back of a house
walls too tight for twelve
you were photographed behind your brother’s shoulders
held and mothered by your sister
now a grandmother.

Tales took shape there
of breaking bottles against concrete
making green glass shake into dust like sugar –
tales of little boys
vaulting high fences, propelled by the spring of fear
from angry dogs salivating.
The barking seemed enormous to you then,

these tales were ticklish to me when –
that defiant cow’s lick never sitting flat
tiny twist turn you gave up correcting
years before my brother and I
made for ungrateful babies with untidy hair
offering daily confirmation of all our kindred faces.

There is so much fallen dust
blanketing with your old brother’s last letters.
I picture you watching him drift towards the March mist.
Now he thickens the ground
surrounding my brother’s long left shoe,
the one you weren’t to notice turning
light and loose on the breath
of the nobody who knew.

Your brother, my brother
there
all too close for sight –

yours, the one who couldn’t last the Spring through,
curled up behind heavy doors,
left room for a small one to flourish into next April,
and he’d be mine, and his, and ours.

And you may never photosynthesise into your mother’s child
like the other eleven –
you were never fully exposed to her direct rays,
her softest feelers always searching,
just missing you in the shade.

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